I just need somewhere to talk. I want to self hard so bad right now. I’m trying so hard not to. It’s hard man. I don’t want to be that person again. I thought I was healed from that. I thought I would never do it again. But right now I don’t know.
I just feel so lost sometimes. These feelings I can’t shake. I hate being alone. I get so inside of myself. My mind wanders to far off places. I have a good life, so why can’t I have good feelings? Why doesn’t good = happy?